Mikey Joe 25 - New Hope
Tracy Lee • September 28, 2020
With 2020 being the worst year ever in most living adult’s lives, we have finally found new hope in our family. Our daughter is expecting a new arrival. My husband and I could not be happier for her.
Two years ago, our daughter lost our sweet grandson, Mikey Joe, while living in Hawaii. The loss was devastating to our family and remains ever painful in our hearts. Of course, as with all pregnancies, there are concerns. However, with this pregnancy, the pregnancy following one of loss, the concern is heightened.
We worry about her health, the baby’s health, the anticipation felt by our son-in-law and grandchildren, what affect COVID-19 might impose, and the statistics of repeat miscarriage. We hope that complications will not surface.
We are praying for a healthy delivery.
Do Children Worry
When their brother passed, my granddaughter was about sixteen months old, and my grandson was only three. Now that their mother is expecting, my grandson is five, and my granddaughter is three.
My grandchildren are very concerned about their mother and the baby’s health. They bring her food and ask her to sit down and eat so that the baby will be healthy. They bring her glasses of water because they do not want the baby to become dehydrated. They are cautious not to bump her tummy and insist that she rest from household chores.
Their concern is genuine and foremost in their minds.
They do not want their new sibling to experience death as did their brother, Mikey Joe. They do not want their mother to be devastated with another loss as she was two years ago. Rather, they yearn to meet, hold, and kiss their new baby as they grow up loving and enjoying each other.
Extended Family Concerns
Their concerns are also my concerns. I know that my daughter, as well as the rest our family, would be devastated if she were to lose another child. I also know that with her history, the possibility of another miscarriage is heightened. That frightens me.
Although my daughter is only five weeks along, she and her husband have proudly announced their anticipated arrival. With Mikey Joe, they held her joyous condition in secret for a big reveal event. Unfortunately, the day they revealed her pregnancy was also the day my grandson's life was lost. The devastation of losing her son was compounded by the fact that she had not built a support structure of family and friends for her time of need.
While being induced for silent delivery, my daughter was informing gleeful well-wishers that she was in the midst of crisis. She and my son-in-law had to post a death announcement the same day they posted their reveal announcement. The day was horrifying for all of us, but most of all, for my daughter and son-in-law as they faced the reality of delivering a lifeless son and leaving the hospital with empty arms.
I will never forget the pain that I suffered that day. That pain continues to tear my heart out of my chest. Witnessing the loss of my beloved grandson, and the anguish of his parents, nearly caused my own death. I hope we do not experience such an event ever again.
My daughter will do all that she can to ensure the health and safety of our tiny grandchild shielded within her womb. Her husband and children will do the same. My husband and I are praying for them during this most blessed and delicate time of life.
New Hope
Our hope is renewed with the glorious news that our family is growing. We are blessed indeed beyond our prayerful pleas. Please join us in prayer as our great nation struggles for peace, civility, and the return of citizenry sanity; the world at large as it struggles for economic and health recovery; my sweet daughter and son-in-law as they face the fears and risks of pregnancy after miscarriage; and my young grandchildren as they suffer their worries for the healthy delivery of their new sibling.
Dearest Father above,
The world needs glorious hope, respectful hearts, acts of kindness, and divine intervention. Bless us with Thy presence and preserve us from the evil destruction engulfing our surroundings.
For these and all other blessing in which we stand in need, in the name of Thy beloved Son, Jesus Christ, I humbly and most fervently pray. Amen.
The past two weeks have been difficult for me. I have suffered the loss of a dear friend and have served families that have suffered great losses. The COVID-19 pandemic has caused unwarranted loss, stress, and heartache to so many people this year. Not only have we lost loved ones, but we have lost our economy, our comfort, and our security as Americans. Everywhere I look, it seems that people are rude and uncaring toward each other when what we need is love. I wish we could be kind to each other, considerate to each other, and help each other through our difficulties rather than burning cities, burning businesses, and tearing apart what makes up great, our Union. Americans are the most blessed people in the world. We live in a time of convenience and wealth. Why is it then that we can’t add kindness and respect to our society? Why must there be murders and brutal attacks on innocent people walking down the street? I work with families every day who would give all that they have for just one more moment with their loved one to say, “I’m sorry” or “I love you.” Time is so precious, but even more precious is the way that we treat others. For if we treat others with contempt, we will reap the bitter reward of hatred. Hate eats a person from the inside out, and no matter how hard a hateful person tries to find happiness, it will never come to them. I know this because I see it every day. A hateful heart has no room for happiness. Happiness only comes to those who love. Love is like light. Light is the only thing that is stronger than the dark. If you have a completely dark room and you strike a match, the light from that match will push the darkness away and light up the room. Conversely, if you have a room filled with light and you cup your hands to create a spot of darkness. As soon as you open your hands, the dark is gone. Light overpowers it just as love overpowers hate. Love is the only thing that is stronger than hate. If you strike an ember of love in the heart of someone full of hate, love will grow and overtake their hatred. In my profession, love is very important. I see all too often those who have pushed love aside thinking that they were winning an argument or for some other ridiculous reason. What I see when this happens is that at the end of life, those who were foolish and let hatred get the best of them suffer the most. They remain miserable for the rest of their lives. Don’t be one of these people. Don’t let hatred get the best of you. And most assuredly, let us not allow hatred to overtake our country. I don’t want to live in a world filled with hatred and discontent. I want happiness and love for all. I especially want love in your life when you suffer loss because believe me, when the grim reaper knocks, it’s too late to cry for one more moment to say, “I’m sorry” or “I love you.” At that moment, the weight of hatred crushes every hope you ever had to make amends, to accomplish happiness, or to right any wrong you may have perpetrated. It’s too late and you are the person who will suffer the consequences of your vicious actions. You are the person who will have no friends, no love, and who will die alone; miserable because of your hatred and terrible deeds. I know because I see it in so many people who thought they could just make a statement, a judgment, or an action and not suffer the consequences. In the end, it’s the hateful people who suffer the consequences. They die alone without love or support. Their needs are not met and they writhe in misery. I lost a dear friend this past week. He was kind, loving, and good. He made the world a better place, and he made my life happier through his actions of kindness toward me. I wish everyone alive could have known my friend. Christ died to make man holy, and my friend John took up his offer. John was a holy man. He lived his life serving others, teaching others, and helping anyone who needed help. He was filled with love and he shared his love with those who needed it. If we could all be like John, the world would be an amazingly happy and beautiful place. John is gone and I feel the weight of his loss deeply in my soul. He leaves a legacy of service to our nation, service to Christ, and service to anyone who needed it. He was a good man, a great man, and now he is gone. I will have the honor of directing his memorial service in a few days. The church will be bursting as those who John served make their way there to express their sorrow and love for him. I will be one of those people. John’s legacy will continue in his absence because he ignited goodness, love, and service in the hearts of those about him. May we all understand and embrace John’s mission in life to serve and love our fellow beings. Doing so will bring us the greatest rewards. It will fill our lives with the greatest gifts on earth; joy, happiness, and love. This is my prayer for you, for our nation, and for the world during this time of uncertainty and discontent. Thank you, John, for being my friend, and my God bless you as you arrive home, never to suffer more, the pains of the world nor heartaches of men. Godspeed.
I received a first call late last night and was therefore at the hospital when I ran into an acquaintance of mine. As we spoke, she told me that her father had recently died. She began to cry and I offered to send over a set of my grief books (Mourning Light I, II, & III) to her office the following morning. I wrote her a sympathy card and delivered the books about 15 minutes ago. She had not yet arrived at her office, so I left the books and card with her secretary. The following is the note I wrote in the sympathy card. I thought I would share it, in hopes that it might help others who mourn as well. Dear Friend, February will be the 2nd anniversary of my grandson’s death. It is said that “Death is Final”; that is untrue. The pain and loneliness remain in my soul, and it feels as though I held his lifeless body, yesterday, in my arms. That day broke me; it almost killed me. Had I not had the love and support of my husband and children, I don’t think my sanity would have remained with me. The pain continues to crush my soul with anguish. There are 4 things that have helped me survive the debilitating pain of losing my grandson, and I wanted to share them with you in hopes that you might find peace in them as well. Prayer Prayer was, and continues to be, my saving grace. Without the love and promise of Christ’s redeeming grace, peace would remain unobtainable. Recounting my Experience Sharing my story out loud made it real. It took away my fear. It gave me power over the chaos of pain. Information As a certified grief counselor, knowing what to expect and whether it was normal or abnormal helped keep my worries at bay. The books that I have sent over are filled with information, plainly and simply written, to help you understand and identify the symptoms of grief, as well as recovery’s signs and secrets. Journaling Writing down my anguishes, thoughts, pains, worries, and fears helped me to let them go. I was able to organize myself, and it gave me hope for my future. I am sorry for the dreadful sorrow in your heart, and the pain that infiltrates your daily existence. I understand that breathing feels unnatural, it takes effort to continue on, and that peace eludes you. I wish that death did not exist, but it is a reality that the both of us know all too well; one that we must endure. I believe that families are forever, that we are all God’s children, and that we will reunite with our loved ones across the veil as we too, one day, experience death. Until that day arrives, however, I pray that you and I will live our lives as emissaries of Christ, basking in his grace, and recipients of his glory. I hope that as you suffer the loss of your daddy that you will feel comfortable in reaching out to others, and that you might call me should you need assistance. The pain of grief should never be carried nor suffered in silence, nor alone. Reach out and allow those who love and care for you to lighten your burdens. Life will never be as it once was, but it will improve as you share priceless moments of peace with those who remain by your side. I hold you in high esteem, and pray that Christ’s promise will grace your soul. With Deepest Regards, Tracy Lee My name is Tracy Renee Lee. I am a Certified Grief Counselor (GC-C), Funeral Director (FDIC), published author, syndicated columnist, and co-founder of the “Mikey Joe Children’s Memorial” and Heaven Sent, Corp. I write books, weekly bereavement articles, and Grief BRIEFs related to understanding and coping with grief. I am the American Funeral Director of the Year Runner-Up and recipient of the BBB’s Integrity Award. It is my life's work to comfort the bereaved and help them live on, as well as educate adults in the needs of surviving children.